artistic life journal of the week.

my sleepy nite.

i lay here bare wondering why me. why i. why was i picked for this life for this destiny. is life worth the pain and pleasure. is life worth it for the love and the hate. is it worth to spend your spare moments on hating others. no. life is to fast the

clocks ticks and we all have a dying day we wont know. well most dont know. i dont want to know. who would. what keeps this ball of energy going? what what keeps this ball of energy in bed all day? Why do I spell words wrong? why is my body love pain? do you ever ask yourself these questions about who you really are. sometimes i glance in the mirror and think is that really kirsten is this me. yes it is what are you thinking do we really see our reflection the way others do or are we fatter or skinnier are we taller or shorter are we smarter than we think are we younger or older than we think. i dont crave chocolate anymore its amazing its a amazing thing to not crave sugar i feel healtier and stronger because of it. i just stared eating my swedish candy car non stop marblalo and stopped and toke a step back and asked why i dont even fee like it. i dont even need it i am not hungry i dont want sugar. it use to give me a high haha sugar gave me a high so i loved it. i chesrished it as a child because my parents didnt allow me to eat it. i would spend all my savins for the weeks all 3 dollars at the cornor store down in corvallis biking there to buy stickers out of a machine and my reeses. i was never a fat kid though. you would think so hearing my bad habits. i thought for a while i was fat though so i went on a diet at the age of i dont know 4th grade and would eat a half PB&J for lunch and that was all. i miss my swedish family i miss my mexican famfily. i miss my old friends ive lost. i miss my new friends ive made. i miss you all. i miss what i cant have i miss what i want and desire. i want a cinderella dress so bad something i never got as a child.

mi fotos

i.m already some bodies baby.

Elliott Smith. Twilight.

Haven't laughed this hard in a long time I better stop now before I start crying Go off to sleep in the sunshine I don't want to see the day when it's dying She's a sight to see She's good to me I'm already somebody's baby She's a pretty thing And she knows everything But I'm already somebody's baby You don't deserve to be lonely But those drugs you got won't make you feel better Pretty soon you'll find it's the only Little part of your life you're keeping together I'm nice to you I could make it through That you're already somebody's baby I could make you smile If you stayed a while But how long will you stay with me, baby?

Because your candle burns too bright Well, I almost forgot it was twilight Even if I think that you are right Well, I'm tired of being down, I got no fight You're wonderful And it's beautiful But I'm already somebody's baby And if I went with you I'd disappoint you too Well, I'm already somebody's baby Already somebody's baby

listen to his music while reading the lyrics its everything i can relate to right now in my life rite now.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sJthA4l8S5U